I am devastated to tell you that I lost the love of my life, Mark, this past weekend. He suffered an unexpected heavy heart attack he did not survive.
I will for sure comeback to again exchange news and pictures of the most beautiful nailpolish out there - it might sound trivial in this moment but I will need some normality and structure soon back in my life. Many of you have become an important part of my life and continuing to exchange notes and comments will give me strenght and hope to live through the dark months to come.
Together we were everything, on our own we are nothing. We are one. Mark I love you.
Heute mal auf deutsch, da kann ich meine Gefühle besser ausdrücken. Liebe Christine, es tut mir so leid, das zu hören. Der Schmerz und die Trauer müssen überwältigend sein. Ich wünsche dir viel Kraft, damit du die schwierige Zeit durchstehst und irgendwann wieder deinen weiteren Lebensweg gehen kannst. Ich drücke dich ganz fest.
ReplyDeleteHallo, ich antworte mal auf Deutsch zurück ;-)!!! Vielen lieben Dank für Deine Worte, Eure aller Anteilnahme ist mir wirklich ein grosser Trost und bestärkt mich auch darin, Dinge, die ich vorher geliebt habe weiterzumachen. Alles braucht jetzt halt Zeit, aber ich habe realisiert, dass es wirklich wichtig ist, sich nicht zulange zurückzuziehen, sondern auch wieder anzufangen eine Routine aufzubauen, glaube mir, mit dem Verlust und der Trauer fertigzuwerden ist auch dann noch schwer genug. Ich drücke Dich auch ganz fest und danke Dir von Herzen - Christine
DeleteMy dearest dearest Christine! I can believe I'm reading this! I don't know what to say... I'm devastated... Tears are running down my cheeks and I can't even imagine how you feel... I'm so very sorry for your lost pet! If you want to talk you know were to find me. I'll be there for you. Anytime!
ReplyDeleteA big big big hug and viele Küsschen from me and Smilla!!! xxx
Hello my sweet stardust-fairy, your wonderful words, your letter and the goodies Nell and I enjoyed provided a tremendous support to me - I am incredibly glad and feel truly blessed to have met such a wonderful person like you through blogging - thank you for being here for me - love, hugs and kisses - Nell sends his purrs xxx
DeleteOh Christine I'm so sorry to hear this and I'm sending many hugs to you across cyberspace. I lost my husband a few years ago and it's such a devastating thing to live through. HUGS ♥
ReplyDeleteThank you, thank you, thank you for your wonderful words. I know, I am not alone with this faith and the more I talk about it (yes, I am a talkative gal) the more I learn from so many people that they experienced similar devastating losses. However, I will embrace my sadness as I embrace my love for Mark - this will help me to live through my very own Odysseus adventure. - Hugs back and again thank you
DeleteOh my sweet Christine, I can't say how sorry I am for your loss. I can't imagine anything I could say to make you feel better but I truly hope that you will be able to find some peace. Sending all my love <333 Sam.
ReplyDeleteOh my dear Sam, I have tears in my eyes reading your message again. There are no words but your thoughts and your wonderful empathy give me strength and courage. Hugs and love <3 - Christine
DeleteYou don't know me but I saw your post through the blog feed of Polished Polyglot and I wanted to stop by to say that I am so, so sorry for your loss.
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Dear Natalie, thank you so much for taking the time to "come over" and posting such a sweet comment - this is another proof to me what a wonderful community the nailpolish Blogworld really is.
DeleteOMG Christine I'm sooo sooo sorry for your loss!!!
ReplyDeleteBig Hugs and Love!
Ina
Thank you my dear Ina, you cannot imagine what your comment means in terms of giving me strength and courage. Love <3 - Christine
DeleteThoughts and prayers go out to you Christine! Remember that you have people here who love you
ReplyDeleteDear Becca, many many thanks for thinking of me and taking the time to comment. You people are wonderful and yes, nailpolish seems trivial in such moments but it gives me the trivial diversion from my otherwise bothersome days - thank you for being there <3
DeleteChristine I'm soooo sorry for your loss. Hugs and love. I'm here if you need me, OK? <3
ReplyDeleteThank you my dear Vicky - it is so wonderful to know that people like you are out there and willing to talk to me - I am sure there will be many days to come, when I am just grateful to fill my evenings with commenting and chatting with you, love <3 - Christine
DeleteMy dear Christine, I am so sorry for your tremendous loss. I can only imagine how devastating this is. If you need anything or just someone to talk to, please don't hesitate to message me. *hugs* <3
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Dearest Yun, thank you so much for your warm words. And yes, what a devastating loss and how cruel life can be, but then there are things that are just out of our control and we just have to carry on - I firmly believe in the saying that you won't experience anything you cannot handle - this is my mantra these days. And thank you for your warmhearted offer, I will gladly contact you - also because I look forward to getting to know you better since you are such a wonderful person - love - Christine
DeleteMa chère Christine, je pense très fort à toi dans ce moment de douleur. Je ne sais pas quoi te dire, tu es dans mes prières.
ReplyDeleteJe t'embrasse très fort.
Ma chère Natalia, I have to write in English because my French is too poor. Thank you so much for your warm words and your prayers. You cannot imagine how much comfort they give me. Thank you for being my friend - je t'embrasse aussi très fort - Christine
DeleteMy dear Christine, I just lost your phone when I changed mine, I wish so bad I can talk to you now. I don´t know what to say to you, you´re one special and kind person, I´m so sorry. I´ll pray for you and for Mark. I love you. Pri
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss, I will keep you lifted up in prayer.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for passing by and keep me in your prayers - this is incredibly sweet
DeleteChristine, I was missing you on IG, so I started to look, and almost asked around where you are, but first i though I will check your blog.
ReplyDeleteI was thinking... well, does not really matter what I was thinking, because it was nothing close to this...
Now I am devasteded ;(
You are in my heart and sending you all my love honey!
_Kiki aka polishmad
Hi Kiki, thank you so much for your warm words - yes, it is devastating but all of you give me so much comfort and strength, you just cannot imagine how important this is for me at the moment. Love - Christine
DeleteI'm very sorry to read this. Even not knowing you, I can only imagine how devastating that is to you, and wishing to express my condolences for your tragedy. There is no words to help but only time to grief and heal. What I've learned so far is we have to be strong, our loved ones would only want us to be happy and stay healthy, despite the horror of their death.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your wonderful words. And while this experience is still raw and fresh in my heart and on my mind, my sadness undiminished, it is a great consolation to me to know that Mark was allowed to leave Earth in a happy moment with no worries, sickness or doubts on his mind. There are only a few blessed ones who are gifted with this.
DeleteI'm so sorry. My heart is broken. I am in tears for you and I am across the world:( You are seriously one of the sweetest women I have ever "met" in my life. I look forward to your comments every day because they are so uplifting. You are a big reason I keep blogging - when I am down, your comments remind me why I blog. I wish I could be there for you. Let me know if you ever need anyone to talk to - you know my email. Take care and my thoughts are with you always.
ReplyDeleteOh Essie, this means just so much to me. You have become such a dear friend to me over the last couple of months and despite the miles separating us, I feel close to you. Your warmhearted words and thoughts give me so much hope and trust. And you might have seen, that I slowly start coming back - taking back-up dear routines (I am ALWAYS on the tip of my toes to see what you have in store for us). You as well are a major reason that I am blogging in the first place, you encouraged me in moments I was ready to quit (before I even really started) and keep going. I most certainly will send you an e-mail soon. But mind you, not only to share sad things!!!! Tight hugs and one million thanks - your friend Christine
DeleteYou do the same for me. I'm so lucky to have met you!!! I really mean that :)
DeleteI am so terribly sorry for your loss and can't even begin to fathom the amount of pain you are going through. I was brought to your blog by sweet Essie of iHeartPrettyPolish and I am so glad to have found your blog because I am here to stay! Take as much time as you may need because we will all be here for you when you return. I'm sending warm thoughts, prayers and wishes for comfort for you through this difficult time
ReplyDeleteDear Dani, thank you so much for your kind and warm words. The warmth and companionship I experienced from the Blogger Community in the wake of my loss is overwhelming and touches my heart. You cannot imagine how much strength and comfort this is giving me!!! Thank you for being there!!! - Christine
DeleteI'm really sorry! That is such a terrible tragedy, my thoughts are with you. I hope one day you'll come back to blogging as we will all miss you.
ReplyDeleteDear Lucy, thank you so much for taking the time to write those warm and wonderful words to me. Coming back to blogging means to me bringing back a routine into my life that always makes me happy and I deeply enjoy.
DeleteSo very sorry for your loss. Hugs
ReplyDeleteDear Nidia, thank you so much for your kind words - hugs, Christine
DeleteYou don't know me, but I wanted to extend my sympathies to you. I am so sorry about the loss of your husband. You are in my thoughts and I send you strength. *Hugs*
ReplyDeleteDear Erica Jane, thank you so much for your warm words that provided so much comfort to me. Hugs - Christine
Delete(((((Christine))))) Praying hard for you, sis.
ReplyDeleteMy dear friend, you cannot imagine what your words mean to me - thank you one million times for being here sis - love, Christine
DeleteMy prayers are with you. My heart breaks for your loss.
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Dear Tami, thank you so much for your warm words and keeping me in your prayers. Your message is so comforting to me - Christine
DeleteHello Cristine. You don't know me but I saw your post through the blog feed of Liesl Loves Pretty Things and I wanted to say that , so sorry for your loss. Sending hugs and all my love, honey <3 <3
ReplyDeleteDear Janet, thank you so much for reaching out to me and comforting me with those warm and hearfelt words. I feel so gifted that so many wonderful people reach out to me to support me in those difficult times. Love, Christine
DeleteI am so sorry Cristine! I wish you hugs, love and support to help you heal. Earth has no sorrow that heaven can't heal.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your wonderful warm words. This thought gives me comfort and strength
DeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. That we meet under these awful circumstances is bitter-sweet. I hope you find some small consolation that strangers from around the world want to help to share your pain and take some of your heavy burden. If theres anything i can do, please just say. You can find me on twitter at catfink1664 if you need to talk. I can't imagine what you're going through right now, and how trivial everything must seem. He will be always with you, in your heart, and watching over you, giving you strength x x x
ReplyDeleteDear Wendy, thank you so much for reaching out to me, indeed, what bitter-sweet circumstances that are. But you phrased it so well, the wave of love and empathy I am blessed to experienced from around the world provides me with immense comfort and warmth. You already helped me more than you might imagine by simply reaching out to me and write those words. Despite my heartbreaking state, I am open to see beauty and friendship in my life and I am deeply grateful to have met wonderful people like you. Love - Christine
DeleteI'm so so sorry to read this!! I know it's not the same thing..but I lost my older brother suddenly a few years back, and well..he was a life partner for me in a way (obviously the unromantic kind!), so I can relate to the devastating loss. Take care of yourself! Be kind to yourself and please, ask for help if you need. Wishing you comfort and sweet memories. xo
ReplyDeleteDear Victoria, thank you so much for your warm words and sharing your loss with me. No loss should be compared to others and no matter the relation with the lost person it is as devastating. I am sure the feel of loss and being left behind is mutual. I will gladly reach out to you - thank you so much. Thank you for comforting and heartfelt words - love - Christine
DeleteDear Leah Ann, thank you so much for your comforting words, Mark will always live in my heart. Christine
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